setbacks

We have all experienced setbacks in our life. It's normal. In college, I got mono and had to take a semester off to get better. Then, I chose to move for my dream job which caused me to put school off a little longer. After Trey and I got married, that job was being dissolved. Later that year my mom was diagnosed with cancer. We applied to be missionaries with the IMB and were set to be appointed in September, but that weekend my mom passed away. Another setback. Daily in Africa we experience setbacks. Nothing works as smoothly as we think it should. Some of these setbacks have been paths I've chosen and some have been unavoidable. Some I would rather have not experienced. What I'm saying is that setbacks are normal. They are a part of life. And not a single one of these setbacks has caused me to not reach the end goal.

In adoption, we were warned to be patient. There would be setbacks. No questions, it would happen. So, earlier this week when we heard that the papers we thought went to the notary in mid-October possibly didn't go, we were disappointed. We set up a meeting with our lawyer to find out what was going on. From Tuesday to Friday we had time to process this possibility. And on Friday, it was confirmed. Those papers had not gone to the notary. You see, these papers start a mandatory 3 month waiting period. We thought that time would be up mid-January, but now... it hasn't even started. First setback.

So far, this is our only setback. But it will help prepare us for others. We are told the papers will go to the notary next week. Pray with us that this will happen. And that the notary will sign them & return them quickly. We're ready to have Little Man in our home. We're ready to have our family together under one roof.

But for now, we are trying to be patient and take each setback for what it's worth, realizing that God is faithful and will see it through to the end of this process.

National Adoption Month

In case you didn't know, November is National Adoption Month. We are almost to the end of the month, and we haven't posted anything about it yet. There's a lot of reasons for this - computer crashing, traveling and lack of internet, visitors in Benin - but one in particular is that I'm not sure what to say about it, yet. We are still early on in this adoption process. I know that the roller coaster of emotions is only beginning and I'm still trying to figure out how to process all of it.

We were in the states in October for vacation. Before we left, we visited with Little Man. Within a week of us returning, we headed to visit him again. We turned on the road to the orphanage excited to see him with his young "brothers" and two older "sisters" walking home from school for lunch. Everyone was excited to see us… except for him. The other boys all quickly jumped in the back of the truck for a ride up to the building. Little Man refused. He was scared. He began kicking and screaming.  My heart sank. I was so sad. I was hoping for a joyous welcome. The last time we saw him we were smiling and laughing and playing… and now this.

I know… what else should I expect. He's a young child who has been on quite the roller coaster of a life already. And then these people come in and tell him we're going to make him a part of our family. Then he doesn't see us for a month. And then we're back again. I'm sure I would be kicking and screaming, too. I can't even imagine all of the thoughts going through his head.

Eventually, and reluctantly, he entered the compound. He gave us hugs… reluctantly. And then we gave him some clothes and a few small toys we brought back for him from America. He warmed up a little more to us and left with a smile on his face to return to school for the afternoon session. I left mixed with emotions. We returned a week later for another short visit and it was much better. No kicking and screaming, and I even got a few kisses.

So, I guess what I'm trying to say is… we have a long journey ahead. Even once Little Man is officially part of our family we will still have a long road ahead. However, because of things like National Adoption Month we can connect with a community on the same journey as we are. We can understand what it is like to be adoptive parents just beginning or even ten years into it. We can read articles written by adopted children/adults or siblings of adopted children about their "side" of things. This month helps us to feel like we're not on this journey alone, and for that I am grateful.

The Cost

We've mentioned before about the cost of our adoption. We are hoping to save some money by being in country, however, that doesn't mean it's free!  We want to help you better understand our costs. Since we are not going through an agency, we can't give the exact total, but only what we believe are the costs. And there are some items we are still unsure of, so those will be blank for now and I'll fill them in as we get a better idea.

Orphanage & Benin Lawyer Fees…….$9,333 (7,500 Euros - paid 4,500)
USA Lawyer Fees……………………....$3,600 (paid in full)
Translation…………………………...….$521 (275,000 CFA - already paid this amount, but more to come)
Homestudy……………………………....???
Benin Passport…………………………$60 (approximate)
USA Visa……………………………...…...???
USA Paperwork……………………...….$720 + $85
Room & Board                                $65/month (while he is not in our home)
Current Total (approximate)             $15,000

There are several other possible costs that we are not sure that we will have to pay yet. Some of these costs could increase as time goes on (translation, room & board). We share this information so you can see the amount that we have in front of us. Through our current fundraising we have raised: $2,030. Obviously, we have a little ways to go. Thankfully, we still have time. Be on the look out for some more fundraising efforts. And if you'd like a shirt, let us know. We've had more interest and will be placing another order!