Today we celebrate mother's. This year I am one of those celebrated :) I love being a mom. I mean, there is still a lot to learn and a lot of experiences to go, but I am loving it. This is my second Mother's Day without my mom here. There is a lot that has happened since she has gone Home. On a daily basis I miss her. I want Chandler to know her through me.
The day after we had Chandler I talked Trey through changing a diaper (so that I could stay in my hospital bed!) and showed him how to swaddle. He later asked me how I knew how to do all that stuff. I was never a big fan of kids and I especially was not a fan of babies. I mean, they're cute, but I wasn't the person to hold and play with them for hours. When he asked me that I thought back to a time I remember my mom teaching me how to swaddle my baby doll. So much of what I know about being a mother I learned from her. The Lord is good to bring those lesson's back to mind with I'm in need of it. My mom is not here for me to call her and ask about things, but she instilled so many things in my life that I will never forget.
The Lord has also blessed me with other incredible "mothers" who have stepped up in my mom's absence. From a great mother-in-law, grandmother-in-law, & aunts, to friends who had children before me to other missionaries overseas with us to some of my best friend's moms. These women have helped to answer the practical questions about how to get Chandler to take a bottle or how to give her a bath or when to move her up in diaper sizes. I would be lost without these women.
I'm so thankful to be Chandler's mommy! I'm so thankful for my mom and the opportunity to keep her alive in my child's eyes. This morning at church we sang one of my favorite songs, Revelation Song. Allen and Ashley sang this song years ago at church and it just touched my heart. Ever since it's been a big part of my life, I guess you could say. They sang it again at
our wedding and it was also sang at my mom's funeral. I thought it was more than perfect to worship in song with that this morning as I remembered my mother.
